Down and Out
I remember times when I was a single mom that I would notice a depression within my soul and a disturbance within my spirit. I would be bothered by these feelings. I could think of so many reasons I could feel this way and then I could name many reasons I did not need to feel down and out. The circumstances of my divorce were not typical and made things more complicated. Abandonment left me feeling fearful. God had come through in so many specific ways and become very personal in my big mess. My experiencing God in such an up close and personal way left me perplexed on how I could easily feel depressed and disturbed.
Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance. Psalms 42:5
It is comforting to know the man that God stated was “a man after His own heart” found himself down and out. David’s transparency consoled my soul. God is up close and personal. God is right in the midst of your mess. Yet, your emotions are real and raw. Healing is a process and there are times that your emotions are your indication to pay attention to the process. Whether it is your own process of pain and healing or the process of your children’s pain and healing. The sweet promise hidden in this type of darkness is that there is “hope in God”. David states his feelings and then tells his emotions to hope. Another translation of Psalms 42:5 is Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise Him again.
Sweet friend, if you are walking this emotional balance beam, you can find your perfect balance through praise. You can steady those unbalanced emotions with hope.